Hello, Im new to this so I hope its ok to give you a little detail about why Im here..
Ive been with my partner for 4 years. He suffers from OCD and severe depression which comes and goes every 3-4 months. When the depression strikes he describes it as a pain in his head & his mind is tormented. He sinks away from his friends & me for 2-3 months eachtime until hes come out of it again. Last year it got so bad that he tried to hang himself, Thank the lord I was able to cut him down and he lived. Obviously this has traumatised me, but it also has him too.
Hes currently going thro his most recent bout of depression and hes crying alot, he feels very guilty what he puts me thro but ive never given up on him. Hes recently been saying he wishes he wouldnt wake up so the pain and torture would go away. It breaks my heart.
Hes a creature of habit and panics when his routine is disrupted so we still dont live together which I do find upsetting, BUT i think he needs to manage his depression before we can live together.
When he is 'well' hes the most loving man I could wish for, its like something takes over is his mind every few months and I wish it would go away.
Hes starting a course of CBT next month, do you think this will help?
We are both praying it will work/help.
Thank you for reading.