Hey all, I recently joined this forum because I have realized I am deeply depressed and not sure what to do about it. I went away over the long weekend and I can't stop thinking about how happy I should have been with my partner and kids and instead spent the first day and night locked in my car crying my eyes out. I started an argument with my fiancée again over some trivial issue from his past that has nothing to do with me and ignored my kids leaving them to do their own thing and wonder why I was in the car crying my eyes out. My partner has assured me that be loves me and wants to help me and my kids keep asking if I am ok and that "its ok if I'm upset" but I just can't be happy. All I want to do is think about the worst things in my life, my past, my partners past, every mistake I have ever made, the fact that my family don't talk to me anymore- anything that upsets me. The same old thing happens, the next day I get up feeling absolutely lifeless my head is hurting and I feel like being sick because once again I have ruined everyones night. I just can't get over things or move on and I need to know that there is something I can do about it because right now I think everyone- my partner, my kids, will be better off without me. I am just bringing everyone down and it's killing me. I feel that the more and more I fall down I'm bringing them with me. I hope someone knows what I'm talking about.