Hello everyone, I just registered today. I'm here because For the past few years I've been having paranoia. It seemed to start when one day my now ex-husband showed me a movie about the Illuminati and how there are conspiracies behind everything. It scared me so badly. Ever since then I've been suppressing all these thoughts I have, like I'll see something on CNN and think, omg, that must be a part of a conspiracy. Or I'll start imagining reasons behind why something happened in the news. I can't watch the news because I get such anxiety that I feel like I'm going to jump up and scream. My ex was also very very paranoid about nearly everything. I'm sure he influnced me. Also I use to be a very devoted christian. I think that has something to do with it. Because when I lost my faith five years ago, my whole life unraveled and I haven't quite been the same since. I asked some people on an ex-Christian forum and they said it may have something to do with the mind being programmed to believed that there are invisible forces governing everything. That makes sense, but I have no idea what to do with that information. I just know I am easily scared out of my mind, because my imagination is very active.
I don't want to be scared anymore...can someone please tell me what's wrong and what to do?