I am a successful 30 year old guy with an amazing fiance. However, my feelings are not so amazing.
Not only am I jealous, I am insecure. My jealousy is minimal, but my feelings that result from it are not. I make up scenarios in my head that my fiance is or will cheat on me. We constantly have arguments about it. We have them to the point that she gets really upset and ends up in tears. I try and tell myself that my fears are a result of past family and marriage problems.
I create this situation for myself, and for the life of me, I cant figure out how to change my thought process. Logic tells me she is an honest and loving woman; but my twisted mind tells me I cant trust her and she is going to screw me over.
I know in my heart that she is the best things that has ever happened to me. I truly believe that! But my brain tells me I am being a fool to trust her 100%. And THAT train of thought is what is really causing a problem.
She tells me she is not leaving me and that she loves me. But my thought process tells me that it is some ploy and I will be hurt in the end.
I dont understand my own thoughts and cant figure out how to change this. I AM insecure as they come.
Anyone else feel this way? Anyone recovered from this? Any advice?