i hate this

[triple x]

i hate bi polar and hate being bipolar it controls me not the other way round well that is going to change i am taking control

[skyblue]

If there is something I could wish for, it would be not to have Bipolar.

I hate it too, it does take control and can be hell to live with.

I have though, been lucky to have recently found the right medication that has diminshed the illness, hopefully for good.

I hope you're able to find the right medications too.

[TOONAFISH]

sorry you are feeling like that. i hate my illness too. it really gets to you sometimes eh x

[rasselas]

yes, it's dreadful. i try not to dwell on it, but sometimes, you just do, and it's painful.

[DiagnosisBipolar2]

I share your pain. I am struggling to control it as opossed to letting it control me at the moment it seems to be winning.

I always think knowledge is power though and I think the better your insight is into this illness the better chance you have of controlling it. It takes a lot of work on our part to get there though or so it would seem...........

[lilly666]

HI sky blue, if you dont mind me asking what have you found works for you?

Do you feel like your fighting with yourself inside? i find it hard to explain how im feeling maybe thats y im not getting anywhere!

[skyblue]

HI sky blue, if you dont mind me asking what have you found works for you?

Do you feel like your fighting with yourself inside? i find it hard to explain how im feeling maybe thats y im not getting anywhere!

Hi Lilly,

I was diagnosed 4 years ago, but have been battling with Bipolar, I believe since I was a teenager.
I've taken ton's of different medications for about 16yrs now, since I was 17 and non of them worked very well until now. Recently my new PDoc presribed me Seroquel and Depakote. Seroquel has been a life saver and has really helped me.
I now feel absolutely fine, all of my demons have disappeared. I've been taking this combination of meds since November last year and haven't felt this well for what seems like years and years.

It's all trial and error though and can take some time to find the right ones for you.

I hope you're able to find the right medications soon. I know just how bad it feels, it can be sheer hell.

Good luck and I wish you well.



BTW - I forgot to tell you that I have also had to change my lifestyle around. I used to love a good drink, but I cannot drink alcohol at all now because it can trigger an episode for me. I exercise regulary and eat heathily and I also make sure I have set routines for each day. Waking the same time each morning and sleeping the same time each night, to ensure I sleep well.
Sounds a bit regimental, but it really does work.

[mumto6]

I know exactly how you feel - I somehow feel robbed of my life.
I have no controll over anything at the moment. I am scared of myself.
I am angry I am ill - I am full of guilt as if I have brought this on myself - I am confused as I dont understand the things I do - I am ashamed to be ill - I feel a let down to my partner and to my kids.I feel a failure as can no longer work - I am hoping once medicated I may start to gain back some of the control.

[piuma]

Im sorry you feel this way. i have to say for me, i enjoy parts of bein manic, infact i miss it right now as im in depressed episode, the first major one. i do hate the bad bits tho, i can understand that xx

[mad as a hatter]

i miss the high,s as well i,m also in a a depressed state at the moment and i do feel bipolor does control ur life and it,s not great i don,t feel being on meds changes that it certainly doesn,t help me have much control at all i built my hopes up that they would only for it 2 a bit fat failurer that saddens me 2 cause i thought i could have some sort off life but it ain,t worked out that way but at least 1 thing i keep battling on hoping 1 day that might change for me