http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/ en Wed, 19 Jun 2013 01:25:12 GMT vBulletin 90 http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/images/misc/rss.png http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/ http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63382.html Tue, 18 Jun 2013 18:52:44 GMT So I've battles food issues most of my life. Just recently went through some severe restricting/purging. Even when it stopped i still wasn't eating.

For the last 2 days I've been really enjoying food. Yesterday i had some kebab for dinner. I was delicious and felt nutritious for my body.


Today im having Indian food. Its also delicious and feels nutritious to my body.

I think the cafe that I've gotten comfortable in has helped. I sit and relax there and feel safe. Even eating. The food is healthy and my mind doesn't freak out.

I think going so long without nutrition has really enabled me to feel the healthy effects of my body absorbing all the things it needs from the food i eat and i have a new appreciation for food now. And a healthier outlook. At least for now. ]]> Experiences CountTheCracks http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63382.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63372.html Tue, 18 Jun 2013 16:31:21 GMT well i have been trying to get back on my feet. decided to apply for a course which would be an apprenticeship... but when applying obviously having a 2 year gap in my work history doesn't help things. they said that they dont think i am ready.. not gonna lie i am devastated. She says that going from no work to full time would be too much and also the pressure would get to me.

just feel so lost.. thought i was finally getting somewhere.. and this would of gave me a few months to enjoy life again without the stress of working.

plans are just messed up now... and i am doubting everything specially myself


:( ]]> Experiences Pffft http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63372.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63363.html Tue, 18 Jun 2013 15:09:04 GMT I know you guys cant do anything so I dont know why im posting this, I guess I just need a friend, someone I can talk too. They say a problem shared is a problem halved right? :) x I know you guys cant do anything so I dont know why im posting this, I guess I just need a friend, someone I can talk too. They say a problem shared is a problem halved right? :) x ]]> Experiences Sammie http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63363.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63360.html Tue, 18 Jun 2013 13:58:58 GMT PSYCHIATRY ALMOST DROVE ME CRAZY | Awaken in the Dream (http://www.awakeninthedream.com/wordpress/psychiatry-almost-drove-me-crazy-2/) PSYCHIATRY ALMOST DROVE ME CRAZY | Awaken in the Dream ]]> Experiences cpuusage http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63360.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63351.html Tue, 18 Jun 2013 11:34:54 GMT I found a place where i feel comfortable. I've been coming pretty regularly. Its a cafe. They are known for being reallyhealthy. The people are nice. I've been coming after work for breakfast. Hot tea and cooked breakfast with nice people seem to really help me unwind after work. Its hard not being well. This place makes it a little better.

My therapist is concerned that im suicidal. Do there need to be feelings involved to be suicidal? I just have an overwhelming need to escape. Flash backs contribute a lot. Death seems the quickest way out. ]]> Experiences CountTheCracks http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63351.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63316.html Tue, 18 Jun 2013 00:22:42 GMT I dreamed again last night that I was getting married, and again I dreamed that I was terrified. The guy was decent, but I was so scared about having sex. Afraid of someone else being in control of... I dreamed again last night that I was getting married, and again I dreamed that I was terrified. The guy was decent, but I was so scared about having sex. Afraid of someone else being in control of my body. But with despair I didn't back out because for some reason I felt that I had to get married, that I would be disappointing a whole lot of people if I didn't walk down the isle. This time walking down the isle was not in the dream, just the resignation that I would be doing so, against my wishes. ]]> Experiences prairiechick http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63316.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63301.html Mon, 17 Jun 2013 22:16:15 GMT A strange title but I am. I don't get your social norms, your expectations. The hypocrisy confuses me so I stick to my own code although get annoyed that this world absorbs me into its strange ideas where I am meant to think well on others but not act on it. Sometimes people amaze me with their odd qualities, thoughts and everything else but other times all I can see is the dark pit we are all falling into. The nothingness we have created. The fact that I'm wrong when I'm right and others are right when they're wrong.

I guess I want sanity to be defined because if society is how it I see I'm glad to be abnormal. And these aren't depressed thoughts they are philosophical, I think. who decides right from wrong.

And what if I would rather be my "wrong" than their right.

I don't see the same as others I know this. I don't notice the same things. I don't feel or think the same things. And people often have to remind me that I need to remember that. I sympathis and when i empathize i literally put myself in a box until i understand, cut off all reality. Because i can't do it otherwise.

I know I'm only human but given this reality i am faced with is it not understandable i would rather separate myself. I'm crazy i guess but what's wrong with that. ]]> Experiences coffeelover http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63301.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63273.html Mon, 17 Jun 2013 18:32:32 GMT Im really struggling to cope at the moment and I dont know what to do. Ive been begging for help for years but no one wants to know! I just feel so let down by the system and the way ive been treated... Im really struggling to cope at the moment and I dont know what to do. Ive been begging for help for years but no one wants to know! I just feel so let down by the system and the way ive been treated and thats making me so angry. Im in the process of writing a letter to the MP at the moment x ]]> Experiences Sammie http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63273.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63267.html Mon, 17 Jun 2013 18:06:48 GMT Couldn't sleep, left early to sit in Starbucks sipping a frap (genius idea, i fucking know). So this Guy gets up to use the bathroom. Its being used. He waits. He looks in his shorts while he waits. He moves his dick around in his shorts several times while he waits. He turns around and looks as me like i hadn't just been watching him mess with his junk unabashedly. Then he went in. What.the.fuck? ]]> Experiences CountTheCracks http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63267.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63230.html Mon, 17 Jun 2013 08:37:17 GMT Hi everyone, this is strange. I've had a few good days since Friday like really good. So I started wearing more accessories e.g. Hats, necklaces earrings etc. I guess my outfits have been a bit more daring and out there than normal but I'm not dressing like lady gaga or anything. Just more colourful and more me.

its just when you feel good you sometimes start doing these things because you remember the person you are/ were. And want to embrace the best of yourself even to your strange eccentric parts. Only thing is people keep commenting about it. Its not really negative, its just they are noticing I know this sounds stupid but I don't want them to notice I want to feel like me.

I know this a bizzare post but I wish people would leave me alone. When people comment I get self conscious and paranoid and they are harshing my mellow :/ ]]> Experiences coffeelover http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63230.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63221.html Mon, 17 Jun 2013 02:19:06 GMT Had another one. Less horrifying. Still about the place of trauma. About pizza/ a pizza place, which is actually not as random as it sounds. Had another one. Less horrifying. Still about the place of trauma. About pizza/ a pizza place, which is actually not as random as it sounds. ]]> Experiences CountTheCracks http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63221.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63113.html Sat, 15 Jun 2013 22:59:38 GMT :( :( :(. . . . . . . :( :( :(. . . . . . . ]]> Experiences littlesparrow http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63113.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63055.html Sat, 15 Jun 2013 09:59:38 GMT I feel bad a lot of the time. I never really have good feelings - I feel it all very much in my chest/stomach/torso. I think it's connected to my mental health, but do consider there to be an intelligence & consciousness that is of the body/heart/stomach & also non-local.

Does that make sense to others? It's not just what is in my head/brain - It's also environmental, relational, life experiences; what has happened to me - all the past experiences that I've had.

I wish that there were people that genuinely understood & that I could chat with & open up around it all; & be able to release it all. It also feels like the medication contributes to it all & keeps it all locked in. It all does my head in.

I try to express stuff on here, & with people in my life; but I really struggle with it all. I know that I come across as articulate; but I also get very confused with a lot of things.

I also get a lot of physical aches & pains; which are almost constant; mainly all over my torso; back, spine, ribs, all over - The Docs say it is all psychosomatic.

I look forward to dying & for all this to be over. I've had 30 years of all this; from when things started to go really bad in my life. I'm so sick of it all.

Current circumstances are that I'm trying to deal with the benefit reforms & how I'm going to be effected with it all, family difficulties & continuing to have to live & cope alone with all this stuff. It sometimes all feels like it's been 30 years of hell. I often think that I'm paying some kind of really heavy karmic debt.

Nothing ever really goes right; there is always stuff that goes wrong, always stresses & bullshit to deal with, there is never any end to any of it all. I feel largely alone with all of it. ]]> Experiences cpuusage http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63055.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63015.html Fri, 14 Jun 2013 18:55:21 GMT Seeing demons are scary..

I'm not doing so well. I'm having many flashbacks. I have a headache.

I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry for wasting breaths. I'm sorry for being a waste of human. ]]> Experiences Lincoln1990 http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63015.html http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63001.html Fri, 14 Jun 2013 16:55:44 GMT Answered the phone as if i were ordering a pizza. I said "never mind, thank you anyway". And hung up. That was my last resort until i can get in touch with my therapist. ]]> Experiences CountTheCracks http://www.mentalhealthforum.net/forum/thread63001.html